Where has the time gone?! It has been officially too long since I have posted something new on this blog but I am SO happy to be back at it. This go around I want to give a little bit of an explanation as to why I have been gone and about a new focus I have in my life and why it is so important to me: wellness.
So before you start thinking that I am going to change my whole blog into a fitness junkie site, let me tell you that it isn’t becoming that. Not even close. I am not going to be posting pictures of me doing some crazy workout at the gym or some nutty new diet I am trying. Instead, I am going to dedicate a new section of my blog to wellness. And I don’t necessarily mean wellness in the tense of a school special. Instead, I mean it in the meaning of well-ness, as in, the well-ness of you and how to stay “well”. Focusing on wellness, specifically my own, is something that I have been really important to me the last month or so. Let me tell you why…
This semester has been hard. Like the hardest I have had in my entire college career with balancing teaching full-time, working a part-time job, being in a sorority, blah blah blah you get the drift. I’ve been VERY busy this semester and finding the balance has been really hard. At the beginning of the year I noticed that my anxiety was out of control and I was suffering from pretty frequent anxiety attacks. For those who don’t know or who have never experienced one, anxiety attacks are awful. I feel like that part is pretty much common sense but they are. For me, they are exhausting and hard to come back from. I literally just want to go to sleep for the rest of the day after experiencing one. On top of that, they are incredibly frustrating for me personally. They are frustrating because I don’t understand why my brain gets so worked up over something that I don’t think it should get worked up about. But it does, and it won’t let it go, and then I’m sobbing uncontrollably in my room, calling my mom, and in turn worrying her.
Let me share this, anxiety is something that both my sister and I suffer from. It’s something that we have both developed over time and something that we both have struggled with for some time now. Katie, unlike myself, takes medication to help her regulate it and live a healthy balanced life. Taking medication is something my mom and I have talked about a few times because it really does help my sister. Medication is something that helps so many people in the U.S. and all over the world but it isn’t something I want for myself. Being the very headstrong, independent person I am, I want to try and figure this out for myself. I want to be in control of my mind, body, and emotions. I don’t want an outside medication doing it for me. I know some people need medication to help them, hell my very own sister does(!), but I just don’t think it is for me. Instead, I wanted to try and monitor and regulate it holistically which gets me back on track as to why I originally starting writing this post.
I started focusing on my own wellness in order to help myself become more in tune with my brain and my emotions. This refocus has manifested in a few different ways. It has manifested in my reconnection with yoga and falling in love with it all over again. It has also manifested in the investment of a diffuser, which has literally brought my sleep game to a whole new level of incredible. And yes, this journey to be more mindful has resulted in some diet changes and getting to the gym pretty regularly. I want my blog to reflect this new change and focus in my life which is why I am going to dedicate a whole new section of Living in the Sunshine to wellness and being well. It’s so important that we as humans are in tune with what is going on within our bodies and in our minds. If you are someone who struggles with anxiety or a different mental health struggle, *fist bump girl*, because me too. Hopefully this new focus in my life can inspire or help you in yours. I am not trying to be some lifestyle guru or know-everything guide. Instead, my goal is to inspire and above all else, be a friend and a place of support. Let’s do this together, be each others support.